Steps 4 through 6

   Step 4 is a course in The Willpower Instinct.  It’s a course recommended by a friend for increasing one’s willpower.  I need that.  As I’ve mentioned before, I have occasional trouble with follow through.  Not always.  I have a roleplaying game that’s been going on for 4 ½ years.  Several goals I’ve had in my life I’ve made (graduated college, bought a house, taught myself how to knit and crochet, etc.).  But, not all of them, and it seems like lately not as many of them.  It could be part of the depressive mood I am in or perhaps my health isn’t what it once was and is draining some energy out of me.  Either way, I am in need of more willpower. 

   It gets into this first journey because willpower will help me with other, future goals.  It goes before The Artist’s Way, because I’ve tried The Artist’s Way before, and I didn’t finish it.  I intend to finish it this time, and having more willpower will help with that.

   Step 5 is The Artist’s Way, for a variety of reasons.  First, I believe myself to be a writer primarily and a creator in other mediums as well.  When you ask me who or what I am, I generally say I am a writer, whether I’ve written a word or not in the last hundred days.  I am also a role-player, a step-mother, a wife, a daughter, and many, many other things.  Typically, though, I say that I am a writer, and I wish to be true to myself. 

   Second, as I said above, it’s something I’ve tried before and didn’t finish.  I want to clear up those “if only” things in my life that I haven’t been able to simply drop from my conscious thinking.  It’ll free up some of my subconscious energy for present life.  Also, as something I’ve tried before and didn’t make work, it’s a great test for my current level of follow through.

   Third, I have a feeling that I have a fount of fabulousness waiting to be set free by my creative endeavors, and they haven’t been let loose yet.  Time to do that.

   Step 6 is evaluation.  How did it go?  What worked?  What didn’t?  What can I do better next time?  What would make good choices for next time?  Should there even be a next time?

   That’s my plan for the next 30 weeks (week 1 already down).  I’m going to post weekly updates on how the past week has gone as well as how things are working out.  Comments and questions are always welcome.